How a Skeptic Found Her Spiritual Path

Let’s get real – I used to roll my eyes at anything “spiritual.” Crystals? Please. Talking to spirits? Yeah, right. Chanting? Hard pass. I was too busy trying to fix myself and failing, wondering why I couldn’t just get my act together like everyone else seemed to.

Then my best friend started exploring spirituality. She was weird, but I loved her anyway (turns out “weird” is where all the magic happens). She’d share what she was learning, and I’d nod politely while internally questioning her sanity.

But here’s where it gets interesting: I started small. Tiny, actually. My life was such a clusterf**k, what did I have to lose? I knew I needed help, I ‘d finally accepted that I couldn’t do it alone. So, encouraged by my BESTIE, Every time I saw an orange car, I’d say “The Universe has my back.” That’s it. No meditation cushions, no sage burning, no complicated rituals. Just orange cars and five words.

And you know what? Those orange cars were everywhere. That simple practice cracked open a door I didn’t even know was there. Perfect timing too, because life went even MORE off the track, with zero light at the end of the tunnel.

So I doubled down on this crazy experiment. Declared it my “year of abundance” (while eating ramen noodles and dodging bill collectors – talk about faith). Then our house burned down. At Christmas. But that devastating loss showed me what abundance really meant as our community rallied around us with support, resources, and love. I learned what abundance felt like, and wanted to keep feeling it!

Slowly (because I was really, REALLY stubborn), I added more tools to my spiritual toolbox. Meditation class? Sure, why not. Spiritual expo? Let’s give it a shot. Each step showed me that leaning into Source actually helped, even when I did it imperfectly.

Along the way I believed that I was a person choosing to have a spiritual experience. Then I learned I was mistaken, I had it reversed. Actually, we are spirits choosing to have a human experience. Game changer. I had chosen this life, warts and all, to learn how to lean thru the hard times and choose love over all. 

Look, my life isn’t all crystals and rainbows now. I’ve navigated divorce, cared for my elderly mom, and lost my dear friend (the one who started me on this path) in a tragic fire. But I’ve learned how to process grief, reset my energy, and lean into love when everything feels like it’s falling apart.

That’s why I created Spiritual Crap – because we all need practical ways to connect with our divine spark, especially when life gets messy. You don’t need to be perfect. You don’t need to understand everything. You just need to be willing to experiment and find what works for YOUR wonderfully chaotic brain.

These days, I probably seem weird to some folks, while those further along their spiritual path still seem pretty out there to me. And that’s perfectly okay. We’re all just learning to love – ourselves, others, the world, everything. That’s why we chose to be here.

So if you’re rolling your eyes right now? Perfect. Pull up a chair. Let’s explore this spiritual stuff together, no perfection required. Just bring your curiosity, your skepticism, and maybe keep an eye out for orange cars. They’re everywhere once you start to look!